Friday, September 23, 2016

mission in me

I yearned to go on mission, yes, but had apprehensions in joining any African teams for although I knew I could rough it (hey I am not as fragile as I look!), Africa seemed too far off the beaten track that I began to doubt if I can handle it.
But God's way and timing to fulfill my desire to go on mission has come and I am grateful for He orchestrated everything and had everything fall into place.
When I told my parents I am going to Rwanda as part of the SFC Mission Exchange team, my mom was hesitant, the place was unfamiliar to her and she was scared for our safety. It was an expected reaction, what was surprising was my dad's affirmative reply thus I could not help but feel a deep sense of gratitude for his yes meant not only am I going to Africa but it also meant he was opening his heart to the SFC community as well and it gave me comfort in knowing that my family understood my call to serve albeit not being members of the community themselves (yet).
Excitement kicked in as wanderlust and the promise of adventure beckoned. Upon attending the MEX training however the excitement turned to anxiety as I was assigned to give Christian Life Program, Evangelization Training and Covenant Orientation talks not to mention spearheading ice breaker activities. Standing in front of large crowd was never my strong suit and the mental picture of myself standing in front grasping for words gave me the nerves.
I re-read my SFC teaching journals and reflected upon what each topic meant to me, praying for God to give me the wisdom, knowledge and courage to be His mouthpiece. With that thought in me the days of the week seemed to pass by quickly and before I knew it I was flying out to Rwanda.
Upon arrival, we were welcomed by the warm hugs and smiles of team Rwanda’s head - Sister Lala Valencia and Uncle James Ssemwangu and the short drive from the hotel to our accommodation was all it took to impress upon us the beauty of this hilly, green and cool city.

It was down to our mission in the following days as we were sent to support and empower the SFC core leaders and members in Rwanda, organize the CLP and build the relationship between CFC-SFC and the parish.
Mornings were faithfully spent attending the holy mass and though it was conducted in the native language of Kinyarwanda it was nonetheless awe-inspiring. The graceful movement of the parishioners as they sang in worship with their eyes closed call to mind the emotional rush we feel during praise fests and it was yet another loving reminder to praise not just with our voices but with our whole being – mind, body and soul.
Another noteworthy local practice was the blessing of the Eucharist. I had my eyes closed in prayer and opened them when I heard lively drum beatings and clapping in time to see the priest raise the host. It struck me that indeed it was a moment of celebration for we are blessed to be able to receive the sacrament of the Eucharist.
After daily masses, we handed out CLP flyers. I don’t usually go out of my way to talk to people other than those within my tour group when I travel – unless maybe to ask for information but having the heart of an emboldened missionary gave me the daring I needed to go up to people, chat with them and invite them to the CLP. The few minutes we spent handing out flyers gave us the chance us to immerse ourselves in and get to know the community.

Another golden opportunity that we would have missed had we just kept to ourselves was meeting Sister Antoinette.  A simple conversation at a local bakery had us following her down a tree-lined street to the peaceful St. Bernardine Convent and on to the University Teaching Hospital of Kigaly where she helped us meet with the concerned persons who would allow us to  schedule a visit to the pediatric patients and organize a simple program for the kids. Truly God orchestrates everything and we should never hesitate to respond to His promptings and allow Him to use us as an instrument to answer someone else’s prayer.
Visiting the children was such a humbling experience. I could never forget how one mother lifted her hands in praises to God for the few pieces of sweets that I handed to her.  It occurred to me that more than the chocolates it was Love that they have received and Hope for brighter days to come.  Indeed blessings from heaven come in many forms and not one is too small to appreciate and give thanks for. We bid the kids good-bye but not after a short prayer and numerous Hi-5’s.

Feeling childlike gave us the high-spirited enthusiasm we needed for our CLP team empowerment where we got to know more about our Rwandan brothers and sisters thru a series of games. After the fun filled event, we had a moment of quiet and reflection as we had our HouseHold meeting. The activity allowed us to see their carefree side and gave us the opportunity to share with each other our own personal faith journeys.
The day of the CLP was a frenzy of activity. I had previously been part of CLP service team but it was quite a different experience serving during mission – we truly had to be ‘mission-ready’. There were no committees responsible for a specific task but the whole team in itself was the all-in-one committee and everybody had to be quick to act and on the move – supporting each and everyone in everyway to ensure that whatever glitches that occured can be immediately resolved without disrupting the talks and distracting the participants.
When my turn to give the CLP talk 6 came I felt a wave of nervousness wash over me. I remember silently saying “this is it Lord… help me send your message … wag po sna ako pumiyok at sna marinig nila ako…”   My hands were sweaty and my knees felt weak but I gradually felt the nervousness ebb away and was heartened by the attentiveness of the participants  - they even laughed at the little joke I said!  Thank You Lord!
By God’s grace the Christian Life Program was victorious. We were physically exhausted but our spirits were joyful.
The warm smiles and enthusiasm of our brothers and sisters in Kigaly despite some of the hurdles they have to bear just to come to the venue, reminded us of how lucky we are to have our SFC Family whereas in some parts of the world people hunger to hear more of God’s word and be a part of a community that can foster their spiritual growth.
Looking back I thought I’d go on mission to offer my ‘services’, thinking I had a lot to give (my time, effort…) when in fact it is me who would benefit more by way of new experiences,  challenges, realizations and friendships… Murakoze Kigaly!


For all of this May God be Praised!