Sunday, May 31, 2020

sweet pearls

Made tapioca balls for the third time this month... though the ingredients and process is easy enough, making the dough into round balls is time consuming thus others would just go buy the ready made kind... at first I was just curious and wanted to prove that I can make it... but after the first attempt it became something of a soothing activity... I would usually make it on a friday, after cooking breakfast while waiting for my brother to get up so we could have brunch... 

... the activity gives me the chance to be away from the computer and gadgets... it allows me to think and reflect... whispering my prayers while my hands automatically make those round pearls... 

… fruition of life goals are like making these pearls - first you have to believe you can do it, arm yourselves of the necessary skills and patience and do the work. It may take time, you may want to give up at some point - thinking there are easier alternatives but pressing on gives you a much deeper sense of satisfaction with much sweeter rewards...

Saturday, May 23, 2020

sometimes the answer is no

... today while busy in the kitchen, my mind wandered back to the fact that a previous big opportunity that seemed to be a sure thing slipped my grasp...

… I bagan to doubt my self: maybe I didn't want it enough? Maybe I didn't pray for it enough? Was  I being selfish to want it?...

... insecurity began creeping in... then I saw a testimonial video about a recovered covid 19 patient talking about how pesonal God is, how He knows the desires of our heart...


... often times when our prayers are not answered we forget that... may we always be sensitive to God's leading and direction...

... in time may I understand why things happened the way they have...